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Halloween ;)

| Friday, October 31, 2014
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So, this years Halloween was themed 60s - Over The Rainbow where you'd come dressed in colorful outfits. As the previous years company was generous enough to subsidize us 30bucks each to get our costumes. I tagged along during office hours with the costume hunting party to the Halloween City store in Annapolis. It seems every year the costume prices seems to be doubling!!! I was not going to spend more than what was given to me ;) LOL

Anyway, in the end I picked up an orange jumpsuit in hopes of dressing up as an inmate. It was the cheapest I could find to fit my thirty dollar budget lol But I did customize it with a number tag I made and then sew it onto the jumpsuit and a ball & chain(which broke within half an hour of my wearing it). The party itself was pretty darn amazing.. the DJ was spinning every amazing track you could think (including Michael Jackson's Thriller). The dancing never stopped. I had a blast! but I did end up leaving earlier as I had to attend some other commitments.

Photos to be updated soon :)

Halloween ;)

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Quote of the day!

| Wednesday, October 29, 2014
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"It does not matter if you are a rose or a lotus or a marigold. What matters is that you are flowering" - Osho

Quote of the day!

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Believe

| Saturday, August 30, 2014
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I am very positive person. I always try and look for the best in everything, but sometimes it’s easy to get bogged down in negativity. If you’re working towards something it’s hard to not let the doubt creep in. You can find you end up asking yourself ‘Is this the right thing to do?‘, ‘What if I do all this hard work and I don’t get the desired outcome?‘, ‘What if all this is in vain?‘. But I figure if you’re working hard for something then it’s got to be something you really, really want, so keep on focusing on the joy if and when it does all come out your way.
When I was thirteen, I couldn’t wait to be eighteen. I thought I'd know it all by then - have all the answers and that prized freedom. When I was twenty one, I planned to be married by age twenty-five with two kids. I'll always smile to myself when I think about how time changes things. And when I turned thirty I made a list of as many goals as I had in years hoping by my 33rd birthday, I'd accomplished them all.

Then a funny thing happens about the time I turned thirty three people start asking about marriage and kids and houses. And I' had begun to worry about savings, retirement, and health insurance. I'd start spending my money with more conscience.. short term sacrifices for long term gains, right?

Then comes a point where I sometimes start to compare my 32 years with everyone else’s. I wonder if I'm on the right track because it’s different from all the people I am surrounded by. I've start going to my friends’ weddings and buying baby gifts for second birthdays and suddenly I realize I am at the exact age that seemed so far away just five years ago.


I’ve always liked including myself ( maybe because I do look young too ;)) in the 25 something category...growing up, but not quite grown up. You’re an adult, but still recognize that you’re part kid. I’ve enjoyed the navigating of adulthood and all of my new first time experiences, a new job, my first ‘grown-up’ paycheck, my first house & car.. growth!

But it seems like the older I’ve gotten, the more aware I’ve become of my short-lived stay in the ‘twenties’ and the pressure to fit the mold of all of the rest of the thirties.. I’ve started to think about how easy it is to become controlled by our age and the expectation of what your age signifies to everyone else, who cares about me. They have an expectation.. almost a timetable of how old I should be by the time I graduate, buy a first house, get married, have kids... start my retirement. Suddenly it seems like there are all these benchmarks to meet, even when they don’t match the goals you are trying to reach..

 My grandma once said; because as easy it is to forget, you’re free to do what you want with your life. The problem is, that can be quite the responsibility, to live your life the way you want to, rather than they way you are expected to especially if that means taking a big jump and especially when that jump may feel like a free fall! Maybe it means - quit your job and go back to school, get married or don’t.. end a relationship that no longer serves you, move away or move back home... become a different person... whatever it may be it is now the time to say goodbye to all of the things that have kept me stagnant and keep moving forward.. In the journey, one thing I always tell myself is to slow down and breathe in.

Believe

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Contralateral?

| Monday, March 24, 2014
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Only to a certain extent are we prisoners of the past. The present sets us free. We can shape it to our liking, and we had better start thinking about how we would like it. "Past is Past ,we should look ahead into the future" - you may have heard the echoes of these kind of para-phrases many number of times in the past and you will find it rheoteric in the imminent future as well.

As an enthusiast of unraveling the mysteries of the brain, I know one thing for sure, we cannot annul the past.The brain activates itself based on the information which is impregnated in the neurons spanning our neural network. The past experiences are stored in the "damn memory" with the aid of the incorrigible neurons.The input to this infallible process comes to the brain from the all saddistic senses.


A whole network of guerillic neurons are activated by the electrical signals to recognize an event, person, object or feeling. That is why when we come across a partial set of stimuli which we experienced in the past, we get to have the "pleasure" of reminding the past to ourselves. There are stimuli which are almost certainly not to happen in the rest of our life. May be, we could be salvaged from such deja-vu's in the future.

Then, there is also the other kind, those which created the most remarkable impact in your life.The distinguishing part is that, it might have been a part of everything which might have been inseparable from you.We could always get the laudable aid of the imperishable artifacts, music, stereophonic names, blended events, dodgy calendar, polyphonic tunes and what not. Even if we can manage to find some courage to annihilate them we cannot evacuate the damn data in the neurons.We can pretend the absence of the omnipotent stimuli around us.We are caught up in the prison of the past. It can be apparently denied but not defied.

Contralateral?

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At Ease

| Sunday, January 26, 2014
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We all have to learn different lessons in life. IMO - everyone come into our life for a reason. At the same time, each person has to come to their own realizations on their own time. This is also known as karma. However you view it, when we adopt a broader view, we're able to get out of our limited thinking.

Reason - Somehow, the thinking/researching/sharing/learning process of the purpose of life or my existence is somehow like food to me. Like the favorite food that has the capacity to stimulate the appetite, prompt me to eat more of it, and motivate me to pursue it. Through the course of it, the excitement of having found something that answers my deepest questions is unbound. Naturally, like a person in love, I wanted to share this love with everyone, especially my friends/family and closed ones. Hence it disappointed and frustrated me when they did not share that excitement. It took years for me to see the bigger picture – they have decades of conditioning behind them which might be standing against the concepts of spirituality that are very commonplace for us now. Though it is very common in India to have grown up with terms like karma, past lives, etc., these are “conditions” taken for granted, rather than conditions that can be consciously influenced. This understanding still feels as strange to them(excluding my western friends) as having cornflakes for breakfast.

Problem - One good example that I can put forth here is My Parents and their Married Life. It(Marriage)is often a status quo. While our parents may have got along very well (irrespective of whether the marriage was arranged or out of love) in our childhoods, as they begin to get old, they begin to reminisce a lot. Whether it is because of menopause, or a constant sense of a past weighing them down all the time, or simply a physical condition translating into irritability, parents can get into fights where they might bring up old issues and buried emotions that had no room earlier. It can destroy our perception of them as being “ideal” parents having an ideal marriage even if we are exposed to our friends’ families falling apart. It can disillusion us and leave us confused. I know I went through (still do) hell in my mind struggling to choose the right from wrong of my parents doing.

Understanding - The mirroring theory is the most artistically at work here. I’ve often observed that if there is even a single thought wandering in my subconscious against my decision to break a paradigm, it will get projected in their thinking. Like it or not, parents exist in the same thought field as you and are more sensitive to picking up thoughts from this field, especially when one is defensive or in conflict about a decision. Clean up your thinking and they certainly respond. Secondly, the goal of acting on something we deeply care about and the goal of rebelling against authority can sometimes get mixed up and the consequences can be very messy. To ensure that what you feel like doing is only for your sake, and not for the sake of proving something to your parents takes absolute courage – because it demands your total honesty to yourself. Ages ago when I was not ready to realize the depth of it my grandma (mom's mom) had wisely pointed out that this is where guilt can be a precise pointer –when there is guilt, the act almost always is being carried out as a rebellion against something rather than rising from a heartfelt intent. Thirdly, acknowledging the conditioning that worrying = good parenting in the realm of unconscious parenting. The only way I’ve found that has worked around this is to casually bring up the discussion and being a willing and open listener, providing a safe space for them to voice those fears out for themselves.

Practice - Parents have often rushed through life – through their careers, babies, investments, taking care of our schooling, then college and marriage and now the train of doings seems to have halted abruptly. Often things may have gone unexpressed between them at various points in time due to various reasons. Now the emotions and memories seem to be catching up. When I learnt to relate this way, their disruptions and issues didn’t seem personal to
me (even if I happened to be the subject of those conversations). I stopped interfering and just watched. These are two people working out their soul’s journeys with each other. Why interfere?” I remember my grandma saying. When they ask me to take sides, I check within if I can give them an authentic, balanced viewpoint. If not, I just tell them frankly that I don’t know what to say and won't be the best to judge either. To put in your confusion along with a train of emotions for “working it out” is to add to the mess.

Continuation - Maybe it is always best to give everything its well deserved time. But always remember, in the path of consciousness, parents are our biggest mirrors. At one point life asks us to stop viewing them as just caretakers and changes our roles into caregivers. For some this happens very early. For some, the change happens and takes us by surprise. Either way, the final step is to grow out of the roles and start viewing them as two unique individuals you are born to, so as to work out our lessons together with them. It is indeed a defining moment when you learn to love and be there for them as if you’ve completely chosen it, rather than as a chore or running in a default mode. While becoming a parent undoubtedly has its rewarding moments (which I have only heard about second hand), transforming into a conscious person in their midst unabashedly has beautiful rewards. And this I can tell by first-hand experience. The grass is definitely green on this side.

At Ease

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Nonpareil!

| Tuesday, December 31, 2013
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"Energy is an eternal delight, and he who desires, but acts not, breeds pestilence. " William Blake


As I was watching Neeya Nana - a Tamil talk show on Star Vijay TV. I could not help but relate that to the Matrix  - which I have watched more than 10 times (literally)!!

Getting back to Neeya Nana - this weeks topic was - why do we (current generation of Indians) break up ( from a relationship)? It was a very insightful and interesting topic to understand the mindset of young adults in India for me. As I was watching it, I pondered about our idea of our thoughts and our sense of who we are. And I just can't not think of what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from - it’s where you take them to.”  In the first few scenes of Matrix, Morpheus describes the "real" world as "the desert of the real". By this, he means that there is nothing real about the real world at all, that everything is a copy of a copy with no original, no ultimate underlying reality. There is no intrinsic meaning outside of what we give it, that the world is essentially meaningless and machine-like, chugging along mindlessly in its own self-perpetuating elaborations. No choice, just action and reaction. This is, as I understand it, pretty much straight-up Postmodernism.

 "There is nothing new under the sun." - Jean Baudrillard

A simple understanding how the geology of the planet is continuously recycling itself will revel. There is no such thing as an "original" continent. The entire crust has been thrust up and dragged back down into the earth's interior more times than anyone can count. It's like a boiling stew. Every rock, every bit of sand, every molecule of water has been broken apart and reassembled countless times. There is literally nothing new, nor, for that matter, original. Hence, the idea that Life has an Ultimate Meaning does not hold . This has meaning relative to that, and this has purpose in the context of that, but this and that together have no external reference......no context in which to take measure. Life at once cannot be contained in meaning. This is not the same as saying life is meaningless, because to say "meaningless" is to assign negative meaning. It is more accurate to say that it is inherently free of either meaning, or absence of meaning.


Wachowski Brothers (the creators of The Matrix Trilogy) are telling us that we exist in a swirl that has neither beginning nor end. It operates on many different levels, but its inherent limitations are the same regardless of which level you take it on. What we call "the world" is nothing more than a machine. It has rules, but no purpose. It isn't "going anywhere". It just is, and it is perfectly happy to be what it is. But we on the other hand fail to realize it, letting emotions clog our understanding of reality. It seems; this is the ultimate cosmic purpose, no matter how gloriously conceived, is a nightmare scenario where everything is bound, subordinated, and ultimately reduced to that purpose alone. It is the absolutizing of relative and contingent purpose, the fraction consuming the whole. 

Poetically speaking, all I can see is endless free-play. This free-play has pattern and rhythm that in human experience has a basic feeling tone of ever-rising, or Joy. There is superabundance. As William Blake said "Energy is eternal delight". There is within given relationships, such as "me and my world", deeply valued meanings, but if these meanings becomes absolutized and fixed, the unconditioned joy giving rise to the whole picture goes into eclipse.  The world in eclipse is an endless reaching for lost Joy, one compensation after another.


It's the "under the sun" part of the "nothing new" clause that becomes all important at this point. You'll recall that Neo's name in the Matrix is Thomas Anderson. The name Anderson comes from the Greek andros, or man. This makes Neo the "Son of Man" - it is the search in us that constitutes our true identity. And when we identify with it, we see the world as it is, and that truth gives us the freedom to make our own choices, instead of being slaves to the Law of Cause and Effect. The truth sets us free. It delivers us from the Wheel of Karma, from samsara. Instead of "through a glass darkly", we now see the world face to face. "When the doors of perception are cleansed, we shall see the world as it is...infinite." - William Blake

Nonpareil!

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Journey home!

| Sunday, November 17, 2013
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My religious upbringing has had a great deal of influence on the spiritually inclined man I am today and I am very grateful for that. If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound? If I don’t tell you my religion does it mean I don’t have one? Do I have to say the word “Rama” or “Jesus” or  "HaShem" or “Buddha” or “Allah” to mean the same thing? Isn’t language a man-made construct that artificially limits a meaning to make it more digestible? Does the word “love” fully encompass its infinite variations? If I don’t say the word “love” does it mean I don’t love you? If I can’t put it into words does it mean I don’t feel it? Does it make it less real?


I don’t need a religious text to tell me it feels right to be good to other people. I don’t need a person in a robe to tell me when I’ve done something wrong. I don’t need to choose sides when people kill each other because they use different words to describe the indescribable..


No one wants to make the wrong choice especially if it means burning in a fiery pit for eternity. If you still want to know which religion I am: I am a Hindu-by-choice. I like that term. If you think of the countless people born and raised in a given religion, many of them practice half-heartedly or not at all by the time they are adults. People who seek and embrace a spiritual path on their own tend to be very devout in their practice. When something is just given to you you tend to take it for granted, but when you earn it on your own with much effort it tends to be very precious to you. I am fully convinced that I was led to the dharma. It found me. The Universe willed it.

'And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.' -  Paulo Coelho

Journey home!

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Happy Diwali!!!!!

| Saturday, November 2, 2013
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Wherever you may be in the world, I extend to you and your families a Happy and Prosperous Deepavali. Let there Peace in your hearts and goodwill towards others.

Happy Diwali!!!!!

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Date :Saturday, November 2, 2013
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Physiologically Musical!

| Saturday, June 15, 2013
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If music is known to influence a physiological parameter such as the heart rate or blood pressure then Aldridge argues music can be used therapeutically for patients who have problems with heart disease and hypertension..

""Humsey Wafaayein Lenaa Taazaa Hawaayein Lenaa..""


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""How can I know for sure That you and I are meant for something more..""


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""Nallathu Seithida Poi Sollalaam Endru Valluvar Sonnaaru..Naatukku Kovilum Kattida..""

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Physiologically Musical!

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Love is Courtesy!

| Thursday, May 30, 2013
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I just don't understand why! So, do not ask me that yet.. but I think, this is mostly how many people approach a relationship. Consciously or unconsciously, they believe love is a sensation (based on physical and emotional attraction) that magically, spontaneously generates when Mr. or Ms. Right appears. And just as easily, it can spontaneously degenerate when the magic "just isn't there" anymore. You fall in love, and you can fall out of it too!!
Love is Courtesy!
Love is Courtesy!

An accumulation of motivations and emotions- goal-directed emotional state. In other words, love is a mind-set that causes the experience of other more fundamental emotions like euphoria. This makes sense from an evolutionary perspective; romantic love directs us towards the goal of obtaining a partner for reproductive purposes, and finding one’s partner is rewarded by feelings of extreme emotional pleasure.

Having said that, next time you are smooching your lover, choose you words carefully. Whispering how intense a goal-directed emotional state they set-off in you isn’t particularly romantic ;)!

We live our lives both as biologically animal and as culturally situated individuals. Our emotions might therefore have a biological basis, even if they are expressed in a culturally understandable way. We see it as a social construct. How we perceive other people and evaluate our feelings for them come greatly from outside influences such as watching how our parents love each other, how our friends love their significant others, etc.

“The most beautiful experience we can have is the mysterious—the fundamental emotion which stands at the cradle of true art and true science.”   Albert Einstein

Love is Courtesy!

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WTH?!

| Wednesday, May 1, 2013
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I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will be as one  ~ John Lennon

I just didn't know what else to say but WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!!!? As I was scrolling thru my daily routine of Google news. I came across this: 5-year-old boy shoots 2-year-old sister in Ky.

I am aware that the gun-nuts reaction to this statement would be "Guns don't kill people. People kill people" And I'll stay up all night to argue otherwise except in this incident alone only because this 5 year old was taught how to use a deadly weapon, but not about it's real danger and the permanence of death. The gun was KEPT loaded and accessible to an unattended boy, age 5, who is innocent, no matter what happened.

It seems people these days have this low level of mental awareness, lack of intelligence, and generally neglectful behavior than to be permitted to own guns. How many you ask? At least one, and that is TOO MANY!


But yet what does our law says; we need more guns in the hands of people like these parents, so that in case the tyrannical government comes after their guns, they can shoot each other before the tanks arrive!!

I personally am convinced that it is a sin to claim that people who are diagnosed as mentally ill need more help to prevent gun violence. It is nothing but a huge cash cow for the stunningly powerful and wealthy lobby groups for therapists.

To begin with, people diagnosed as mentally ill are not statistically more likely to be violent. It is especially amazing that this is the case, because increasingly, when someone is charged with a violent crime, therapists are brought in to diagnose them as mentally ill, so there is an apparent but actually artifactual (alleged), increasing correlation of being diagnosed with committing violence.

So, do we assume people who are upset, bereaved, frightened, etc., by life events as mentally ill? No. Only by a therapist's diagnosis! It is crucial to be aware of the fact that to reduce violence, we cannot allow the money of the NRA, the drug companies, and the mental health lobby groups to dictate what we do! Period!!!!

"Imagine all the people living life in peace" and "Nothing to kill or die for. - John Lennon









WTH?!

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Re-discover!

| Wednesday, April 17, 2013
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Nothing new, we all know, I love music. I listen to music a lot and I love discovering new artists, styles and sounds. It is true that music has no language. Its speaks only one language. The language of Love, language of feelings, emotions.

Now, these songs reminds and speaks to me about one common factor...Take a listen yourself, I am sure these will definitely help you rediscover your lost passion for these wonderful songs and make you want to listen to them all over again.

""Rooh Ne Chhoo li Jism Ki Khushboo...Tu Jo Paas Aayi..""


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""I keep looking for something new, Will you pick me up? Can you pull me through? A melody, A little piece of where I come from..""





""Kaasa Noigarigalum Kanurangum Vaelayila..Aasa Noi Vanthu Maga Ara Nimisam Thoongalayae""







Re-discover!

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Vishwaroopam

| Saturday, January 26, 2013
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More than, the ban of Vishwaroopam, I have become a little tired of the efforts for "high production value" in recent years. It seems like many Indian, especially south film making "pundits" see this as meaning "special effects" more than anything else. The number of movies that are just high quality works with good actors and a strong plot and few extra, unneeded frills seems to have greatly decreased in the last couple of decades.

Good movie, specifically cinematography is not just about ‘eye‑candy’, but about giving substance and meaning to what’s on screen, using technology, skill and artistic expression.  It’s not even just about careful framing and high production values: matching up ‘moods’ and ‘feels’ is arguably even more important. And Vishwaroopam is one such movie with outstanding cinematography & audio-graphy brought together in a brilliant way by Dr. Kamal Haasan!

Vishwaroopam

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2013!

| Monday, December 31, 2012
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Happy New Year! We’re all starting the year with a clean slate, so forget those niggling little problems you’ve been dwelling on, get rid of that old baggage you’ve been carrying around, and concentrate on the good things in your life. I hope that 2013 holds much love, happiness, and good health for you and yours.

Till the next time, I will leave you with the quite below:

2013!

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American History X

| Saturday, August 25, 2012
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The best thing about this film is Edward Norton. I can enjoy him in any role and believe his character no matter how polar opposite it might be from other roles Norton has played. He delivers his best performance yet and flawlessly personifies a white supremacist. His performance is so believable that you actually begin to hate his character and his racist ideologies. This however is extremely ironic because the whole point of the film is try and deter society from hate and instead move towards rational and tolerance. Although it may seem infeasible that a hardcore white supremacist can easily turn over a new leaf, Edward Norton makes it possible. His performance is real, believable, and could not have been done better.

American History X is not just an excellent film because of the cinematic qualities but also because it addresses an extremely important issue in American society: racism. It is so powerful that it can truly change ones’ opinions and beliefs about racism. It is influential and has the potential of changing American society for the better by stopping groups such as the Ku Klux Klan and by instilling a sense of tolerance for other races for anyone who watches the film.

American History X

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Scores collectively!

| Tuesday, July 17, 2012
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Time is flying. I'm not going to promise consistency over the summer - will be a huge distraction - but I will do my best to avoid big gaps in posting again. In any case it was not meant to be another month break. It's been a vicious couple of months, hasn't it? All my best wishes go out to anyone caught up in any of the chaos.

 

Anyways; This is one I've been meaning to post since the last spread. So finally now, I've compiled a list of tracks for anyone unfamiliar with what music can do to your soul. Good words and fine sentiments are not enough. The music must move us.

A good night's sleep really means feeling good at every step of the way. For example, one can pass out pretty happily after a big weekend evening of drinking, but I bet you he'll toss in the middle of the night and awake with a headache that really ruins it all.

Sometimes one may go to bed early and sleep really well through the night, but awake feeling grumpy and tired for no discernible reason. Both of these are problems and these songs will solve them both... and much more of course...














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Renewing

| Tuesday, December 6, 2011
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Aruna gazed out over the Arabian Sea, feeling the faint breeze against her face - eyes shut, the white sand warm between her bare toes. The place was beautiful beyond belief, but it was still unable to ease the grief she felt as she remembered the last time she had been here.

She had married Ram right here on this spot three years ago to the day. Dressed in a simple, yet elegantly embroided purple saree, miniature red roses attempting to tame her long dark curls, Aruna had been happier than she had ever thought possible. Ram was even less traditional but utterly irresistible in creased cotton dhoti and a loose white cotton shirt. His dark hair slightly ruffled and his eyes full of adoration as his looked at his bride to be. The Vaishnav Guru read their vows as they held hands and laughed at the sheer joy of being young, in love and staying in a five star resort in Mumbai of India. They had seen the years blissfully stretching ahead of them, together forever. They planned their children, two she said, he said four so they compromised on three (two girls and a boy of course); where they would live, the traveling they would do together - it was all certain, so they had thought then.


But that seemed such a long time ago now. A lot can change in just a few years - a lot of heartache can change a person and drive a wedge through the strongest ties, break even the deepest love. Three years to the day and they had returned, though this time not for the unconventional beach side marriages but for one of its equally unpopular quickie divorces.

Aruna let out a sigh that was filled with pain and regret. What could she do but move on, find a new life and new dreams? - the old one was beyond repair. How could this beautiful place, with its lush green coastline, eternity of azure blue sea and endless sands be a place for the agony she felt now?


The man stood watching from the edge of the palm trees in the Sagar Upavan Park. He couldn't take his eyes of the dark-haired woman he saw standing at the water's edge, gazing out to sea as though she was waiting for something - or someone. She was beautiful, with her slim figure dressed in a loose flowing cotton dress, her crazy hair and eyes not far off the colour of the sea itself. It wasn't her looks that attracted him though; he came across many beautiful women in his work as a freelance photographer. It was her loneliness and intensity that lured him. Even at some distance he was aware that she was different from any other woman he could meet.


Aruna sensed the man approaching even before she turned around. She had been aware of him standing there staring at her and had felt strangely calm about being observed. She looked at him and felt the instant spark of connection she had only experienced once before. He walked slowly towards her and they held each other's gaze. It felt like meeting a long lost friend - not a stranger on a strange beach side park.


Later, sitting at one of the many restaurants in the city, sipping the local chai they began to talk. First pleasantries, their hotels, the quality of the food and friendliness of the locals. Their conversation was strangely hesitant considering the naturalness and confidence of their earlier meeting. Onlookers, however, would have detected the subtle flirtation as they mirrored each other's actions and spoke directly into each other's eyes. Only later, after the small talk had had its loosening effect, did the conversation deepen. They talked of why they were here and finally, against her judgement, Aruna opened up about her heartache of the past year and how events had led her back to the place where she had married the only man she believed she could ever love. She told him of things that had been locked deep inside her, able to tell no one. She told him how she had felt after she had lost her baby.

She was six months pregnant and the happiest she had ever been when the pains had started. She was staying with her mother as Ram was working out of town. He hadn't made it back in time. The doctor had said it was just one of those things, that they could try again. But how could she when she couldn't even look Ram in the eye. She hated him then, for not being there, for not hurting as much as her but most of all for looking so much like the tiny baby boy that she held for just three hours before the took him away. All through the following months she had withdrawn from her husband, family, friends. Not wanting to recover form the pain she felt - that would have been a betrayal of her son. At the funeral she had refused to stand next to her husband and the next day she had left him.

Looking up, Aruna could see her pain reflected in the man's eyes. For the first time in months she didn't feel alone, she felt the unbearable burden begin to lift from her, only a bit but it was a start. She began to believe that maybe she had a future after all and maybe it could be with this man, with his kind hazel eyes, wet with their shared tears.

They had come here to dissolve their marriage but maybe there was hope. Aruna stood up and took Ram by the hand and led him away from the restaurant towards the beech where they had made their vows to each other three years ago. Tomorrow she would cancel the divorce; tonight they would work on renewing their promises.


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Renewing

Posted by : Jegan
Date :Tuesday, December 6, 2011
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Congratulations Ishak!!!

| Saturday, November 26, 2011
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On this special day,
Your Wedding Day,
My hearty wishes goes to you both.
May the wonderful love you share,
Last a lifetime with care.
A place of discipline and responsibility,
Were your whole self, mind, body and feelings are shared.
This marraige is a union in Allah's care.

Congratulations Ishak!!!

Posted by : Jegan
Date :Saturday, November 26, 2011
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Happy Thanksgiving Folks!

| Thursday, November 24, 2011
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The year has turned its circle,
The winter season is here.
The chilly north winds blow.
And we shall have snow.
The fields, show their yellow grain,
Thanksgiving comes again!

Happy Thanksgiving Folks!

Posted by : Jegan
Date :Thursday, November 24, 2011
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Eid Mubarak!!

| Monday, November 7, 2011
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To all my friends; may Allah bring peace and security in your and everybody else lives. I wish you all Unity, Faith, Discipline, Peace & Tranquility.

Eid Mubarak!!

Posted by : Jegan
Date :Monday, November 7, 2011
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