Initiation

Continuation of my consummating (re)write (self) up... I experience the ease I've had to preach but difficulty I have in practicing the initiation of my private beginning of a new life installment. The endowment of my soul of all remembered emotions and aspirations and so it speaks to the future and the past in present. The Initiation doesn’t necessarily make you a “better person”. No matter how magically talented one may become, certain traits will remain. This inner process of re-inventing myself is uniquely my own. I must channel my own anxiety, meaninglessness, and despair defiantly into my own distinctive designs-of-being. I, then become non-reproducible mortal with never-repeatable live.

I have in the past acknowledged in human endeavors, even the most altruistic actions and nurturing behavior stem from the ego of the doer. A simple and easily acceptable example would be; A mother nurtures her child because her ego is stroked by the title of being a mother and she wants to be proud of the work she will do with that child. So, I am not going to differ from what I have agreed to be a good quality of mine but just reiterate the fact that there is a limit. I, over the course of my self studying years have realized some treats to play a vital role to be virtuous human being. They are as follows; self-love first, self-transcendence, self-actualization to find self-fulfillment and realize one's potential with constructive self-criticism, altruism, self-freedom, creativity, awareness of our existential predicament, glimpses of joy, happiness and fulfillment.

Now, I believe I do not have to repeat an explanation to point out how ego plays a role in each and every treats mentioned above. But the problem is I find it hard to apply my new way of living, for I am yet to realize the point where I can draw the very thin line of nurturing ego. But, my first line gives me hope...

ps: thanks to calimafia aka self proclaimed issai tsunami ;) for helping us attain our search...