2015 starts
with warm new years wishes
thanks for your support
a basket full of happiness
from the bottom of my heart!!!
with warm new years wishes
thanks for your support
a basket full of happiness
from the bottom of my heart!!!
Newest Post
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Saturday, December 27, 2014
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Ten years ago I began my blog. With hope to write at least one post a
day, thinking daily inspiration would be around the corner. But as per
usual, side tracking occurred. I was inspired and blog ready for the
first six years, then after some life set backs, I began to slack. The
inspiration wasn’t constantly present; I wasn’t remembering to go online
and blog daily. It happened, change. So what?
Just as much as we don’t want things to change, they do. As much as we don’t like tough times, they happen, they are necessary. Things will shake us up, change us, steer us on some new, unknown path. It will happen, so just let it happen. We can fight change, be depressed, and suppress it. And for what? The more we push, the harder we will get hit.
People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing, that's why I recommend it daily.
I’ve come to realize, just because I wasn’t inspired and didn’t blog every day like I had intended, “A quote every single day…or at least every week...” doesn’t mean I’ve failed. It doesn't mean I suck and should give it. No. It is what it is. Inspiration will come and go. We just need to stay motivated. I can pick up, exactly where I left off. Feel what I'm meant to feel, each day as they come.
My feelings will continue..
Just as much as we don’t want things to change, they do. As much as we don’t like tough times, they happen, they are necessary. Things will shake us up, change us, steer us on some new, unknown path. It will happen, so just let it happen. We can fight change, be depressed, and suppress it. And for what? The more we push, the harder we will get hit.
People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing, that's why I recommend it daily.
I’ve come to realize, just because I wasn’t inspired and didn’t blog every day like I had intended, “A quote every single day…or at least every week...” doesn’t mean I’ve failed. It doesn't mean I suck and should give it. No. It is what it is. Inspiration will come and go. We just need to stay motivated. I can pick up, exactly where I left off. Feel what I'm meant to feel, each day as they come.
My feelings will continue..
Year away from 35!
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Monday, December 15, 2014
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At 34, here I am trying to temper my friendships with wisdom, and temper my wisdom with friendships :)
Wishes for you!
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Monday, November 3, 2014
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I'm not a religious person. I'm more spiritual, I believe. Earlier this year, I have been tested like I have never been tested before.
There have been so many trials in all aspects of my life -- love, family, work, friends, self. My emotions were overflowing I didn't know how to
contain myself. I was holding on to my virtues tightly.
Then I realized all the while I was seeking for material things.. until last Friday, while driving to work, I realized there is one thing that I really need -- peace. Peace on earth, peace on our hearts, peace of mind. There are millions of non-material things I can wish for you but this is what my heart yearns. Today, the 3rd of Nov - Zero Fourteen as you (will hopefully) blow the candle on your cake, I'll be praying and wishing you for one thing, peace.
I know it is not much Reetu, but this all I have to say - I will always remember the relationship we had and that was very special to me. I understand that there is no reason to be together again since you do not feel the same for me. Be sure that someone else will conquer your love, so I can only wish you the best.
Then I realized all the while I was seeking for material things.. until last Friday, while driving to work, I realized there is one thing that I really need -- peace. Peace on earth, peace on our hearts, peace of mind. There are millions of non-material things I can wish for you but this is what my heart yearns. Today, the 3rd of Nov - Zero Fourteen as you (will hopefully) blow the candle on your cake, I'll be praying and wishing you for one thing, peace.
I know it is not much Reetu, but this all I have to say - I will always remember the relationship we had and that was very special to me. I understand that there is no reason to be together again since you do not feel the same for me. Be sure that someone else will conquer your love, so I can only wish you the best.
Halloween ;)
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Friday, October 31, 2014
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So, this years Halloween was themed 60s - Over The Rainbow where you'd come dressed in colorful outfits.
As the previous years company was generous enough to subsidize us 30bucks each to get our costumes. I tagged along during office hours with the costume hunting party to the Halloween City store in Annapolis. It seems every year the costume prices seems to be doubling!!! I was not going to spend more than what was given to me ;) LOL
Anyway, in the end I picked up an orange jumpsuit in hopes of dressing up as an inmate. It was the cheapest I could find to fit my thirty dollar budget lol But I did customize it with a number tag I made and then sew it onto the jumpsuit and a ball & chain(which broke within half an hour of my wearing it). The party itself was pretty darn amazing.. the DJ was spinning every amazing track you could think (including Michael Jackson's Thriller). The dancing never stopped. I had a blast! but I did end up leaving earlier as I had to attend some other commitments.
Photos to be updated soon :)
Anyway, in the end I picked up an orange jumpsuit in hopes of dressing up as an inmate. It was the cheapest I could find to fit my thirty dollar budget lol But I did customize it with a number tag I made and then sew it onto the jumpsuit and a ball & chain(which broke within half an hour of my wearing it). The party itself was pretty darn amazing.. the DJ was spinning every amazing track you could think (including Michael Jackson's Thriller). The dancing never stopped. I had a blast! but I did end up leaving earlier as I had to attend some other commitments.
Photos to be updated soon :)
Quote of the day!
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Wednesday, October 29, 2014
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"It does not matter if you are a rose or a lotus or a marigold. What matters is that you are flowering" - Osho
Diwali Twenty Forteen!
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Thursday, October 23, 2014
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Wishing You And Your Family,
Health, Success And A Journey
Towards The Never Ending Light.
May This Festival
Full Your Mind With Peace.
Happy Diwali.
Health, Success And A Journey
Towards The Never Ending Light.
May This Festival
Full Your Mind With Peace.
Happy Diwali.
Mercedes - I drive
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Monday, October 20, 2014
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I've trade my 2013 Malibu to get a NEW Mercedes C300 Sport. It has been 3 days since I got it and figured it would be nice to share my thoughts.
Some background: This is my first very own Mercedes since I've had my license. I have rented them, drove my friends but this is different. It is mine - well technically will be mine soon as I pay off the loan ;)
Exterior: Love it. Every line flows beautifully, a great combination of subtle and aggressive with a slight lean on aggressive with the Sport body style. The Arctic White paint job shines brilliantly in the sun and the seemingly glows in the night with reflections from cars and street lamps. It basically blends in when I want it to and still manages to turn heads. And the fact that it matches with my Bright White Jeep Wrangler is AWESOME!!
Interior:
Some background: This is my first very own Mercedes since I've had my license. I have rented them, drove my friends but this is different. It is mine - well technically will be mine soon as I pay off the loan ;)
Exterior: Love it. Every line flows beautifully, a great combination of subtle and aggressive with a slight lean on aggressive with the Sport body style. The Arctic White paint job shines brilliantly in the sun and the seemingly glows in the night with reflections from cars and street lamps. It basically blends in when I want it to and still manages to turn heads. And the fact that it matches with my Bright White Jeep Wrangler is AWESOME!!
Interior:
This
thing is a vault. A comfortable vault filled with great materials from
the seats to the dash. The seats are made of a hand sewed leather.. pretty comfortable. The dashboard materials
are a matte soft touch plastic with trim, everything from the
stalks to the buttons feel top notch.
POWAHH:
Perhaps
this car is a dog to most but for me it is great, it puts out 248 hp
and 251 pound feet torque. It defaults to ECO mode on Start up which
includes Start/Stop engine tech and starts you off in second gear. For
all the traffic I've dealt with in the city this function has saved me a
lot of gas. At first I thought it was a gimmick and it would be
annoying (Start/Stop) but it's seamless. Switch over to Sport mode and
that's when the C300 comes alive, it puts down it's power quickly when I
need it and I can easily get up to speeds that are beyond what's
posted. The C300 is a 4Matic with a rear bias and it handles
exceptionally well especially around tight bends. Many people complain
that AWD isn't fun but I've been having a blast!
Ride:
Amazingly
comfortable even with these 3rd world country roads that Baltimore Dept of
Transportation haven't maintained in a decade. It absorbs bumps with
ease and never feels harsh.
My Closing Thoughts:
- When you get a Mercedes Benz, people's whole perception of you changes. Friends expect you to blow money fast when you are reluctant to spend money on crap, no I don't want to spend $18 to see the Dracula Untold "But you gotta Benz yo!" they retort. To me this is just a car, a car that hit all of the things that I wanted for a price that fit perfectly in my budget.
- People want to race, all the time. I'll be at a red light minding my own business and a guy will pull up in his Acura TSX, stare at me, chirp his wheels and speed up to the next stop light. I then casually drive to the next light taking full advantage of the ECO Start/Stop. This also takes place on highways with various BMW/Audi drivers attempting to prove to me that their German car is best German car. I never entertain it for a second.
- Men grill me. I can be at a red light and look around and see a guy with this angry look on his face staring right at me whether they are in another car, standing on the corner or crossing the street with their girlfriends. It's this look that says "I don't know who you are but I hate your stupid face and your stupid car".
I casually look away because that's lame and jealousy is a female trait.
- Girls grill me. I can be at a red light and look around and see a girl with this sultry look on her face staring right at me whether they are in another car, standing on the corner or crossing the street with their boyfriends. It's this look that says "I don't know who you are but I love your sexy face and your sexy car".
All in all I'm happy and I thank Mercedes Benz of Cataonsville for making all of this possible!
Here
she is in the morning after getting 30% tint all around:
Annapolis Bancorp!
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Wednesday, October 8, 2014
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My reunion with Annapolis Bancorp folks: an unexpected and delightful evening at Union Jacks!
The reunion, “I think it is a wonderful indication of the spirit that helped made this company great,” Patsy said. “The image lives on in these people.”
I cannot believe it has been almost three years since BA was taken over by FNB!! Some folks are missed very much :(
But nevertheless it was awesome to catch up with some of my best-est work buddies :)
A Decade!
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Saturday, September 6, 2014
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I have been blogging for a decade. I wrote and wrote and I guess I am still writing. I shared my opinions, I linked to songs, books and movies I liked and more importantly, I used the blog to reflect myself to me. IMO, blogging is a spiritual practice that teaches me about faith and resilience.
At this juncture I like to say; the seeds have been planted and the dream has taken root. Now all I have
to do is the daily discipline of silencing the enemy within :)
Believe
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Saturday, August 30, 2014
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Then a funny thing happens about the time I turned thirty three people start asking about marriage and kids and houses. And I' had begun to worry about savings, retirement, and health insurance. I'd start spending my money with more conscience.. short term sacrifices for long term gains, right?
Then comes a point where I sometimes start to compare my 32 years with everyone else’s. I wonder if I'm on the right track because it’s different from all the people I am surrounded by. I've start going to my friends’ weddings and buying baby gifts for second birthdays and suddenly I realize I am at the exact age that seemed so far away just five years ago.
I’ve always liked including myself ( maybe because I do look young too ;)) in the 25 something category...growing up, but not quite grown up. You’re an adult, but still recognize that you’re part kid. I’ve enjoyed the navigating of adulthood and all of my new first time experiences, a new job, my first ‘grown-up’ paycheck, my first house & car.. growth!
But it seems like the older I’ve gotten, the more aware I’ve become of my short-lived stay in the ‘twenties’ and the pressure to fit the mold of all of the rest of the thirties.. I’ve started to think about how easy it is to become controlled by our age and the expectation of what your age signifies to everyone else, who cares about me. They have an expectation.. almost a timetable of how old I should be by the time I graduate, buy a first house, get married, have kids... start my retirement. Suddenly it seems like there are all these benchmarks to meet, even when they don’t match the goals you are trying to reach..
My grandma once said; because as easy it is to forget, you’re free to do what you want with your life. The problem is, that can be quite the responsibility, to live your life the way you want to, rather than they way you are expected to especially if that means taking a big jump and especially when that jump may feel like a free fall! Maybe it means - quit your job and go back to school, get married or don’t.. end a relationship that no longer serves you, move away or move back home... become a different person... whatever it may be it is now the time to say goodbye to all of the things that have kept me stagnant and keep moving forward.. In the journey, one thing I always tell myself is to slow down and breathe in.
I am very positive person. I always try and look for the best in everything, but sometimes it’s easy to get bogged down in negativity. If you’re working towards something it’s hard to not let the doubt creep in. You can find you end up asking yourself ‘Is this the right thing to do?‘, ‘What if I do all this hard work and I don’t get the desired outcome?‘, ‘What if all this is in vain?‘.
But I figure if you’re working hard for something then it’s got to be something you really, really want, so keep on focusing on the joy if and when it does all come out your way.
When I was thirteen, I couldn’t wait to be eighteen. I thought I'd know it all by then - have all the answers and that prized freedom. When I was twenty one, I planned to be married by age twenty-five with two kids. I'll always smile to myself when I think about how time changes things. And when I turned thirty I made a list of as many goals as I had in years hoping by my 33rd birthday, I'd accomplished them all.Then a funny thing happens about the time I turned thirty three people start asking about marriage and kids and houses. And I' had begun to worry about savings, retirement, and health insurance. I'd start spending my money with more conscience.. short term sacrifices for long term gains, right?
Then comes a point where I sometimes start to compare my 32 years with everyone else’s. I wonder if I'm on the right track because it’s different from all the people I am surrounded by. I've start going to my friends’ weddings and buying baby gifts for second birthdays and suddenly I realize I am at the exact age that seemed so far away just five years ago.
I’ve always liked including myself ( maybe because I do look young too ;)) in the 25 something category...growing up, but not quite grown up. You’re an adult, but still recognize that you’re part kid. I’ve enjoyed the navigating of adulthood and all of my new first time experiences, a new job, my first ‘grown-up’ paycheck, my first house & car.. growth!
But it seems like the older I’ve gotten, the more aware I’ve become of my short-lived stay in the ‘twenties’ and the pressure to fit the mold of all of the rest of the thirties.. I’ve started to think about how easy it is to become controlled by our age and the expectation of what your age signifies to everyone else, who cares about me. They have an expectation.. almost a timetable of how old I should be by the time I graduate, buy a first house, get married, have kids... start my retirement. Suddenly it seems like there are all these benchmarks to meet, even when they don’t match the goals you are trying to reach..
My grandma once said; because as easy it is to forget, you’re free to do what you want with your life. The problem is, that can be quite the responsibility, to live your life the way you want to, rather than they way you are expected to especially if that means taking a big jump and especially when that jump may feel like a free fall! Maybe it means - quit your job and go back to school, get married or don’t.. end a relationship that no longer serves you, move away or move back home... become a different person... whatever it may be it is now the time to say goodbye to all of the things that have kept me stagnant and keep moving forward.. In the journey, one thing I always tell myself is to slow down and breathe in.
Aadat si hai mujh..
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Saturday, July 12, 2014
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Tumne hi toh kaha tha na Reetu, buri aadat ko chodne ke liye ek acchi aadat ki zaroorat hai... Tum thi meri acchi aadat!
Tumne hi toh kaha tha na Reetu, buri aadat ko chodne ke liye ek acchi aadat ki zaroorat hai... Tum thi meri acchi aadat!
I'll Be Waiting (Kabhi Jo Baadal) - Cover by Arjun
You're beautiful
You criminal
Girl you took everything from me
Can't let you go
Like a general
I'm going into battle cause...
You stole the breath from my lungs
Cut my veins, bleeding love
Oh I still remember that scene..
Cuz I can see the tears running down your cheek
I can feel your body so close to me
I can hear the rain dropping at your feet
Cuz your love was gone
(Koi nahi.. Mita de sabhi..)
24x7, I will be waiting
Out in the rain till somebody saves me
Don't care if it takes forever to make you believe
Kabhi jo baadal barse
Main dekhoon tujhe aankhein bharke
Tu lage mujhe pehli baarish ki duaa
It's like a gun shot went straight through me
Stopped my heart from beating
No - won't let you get away
Cuz I can see the tears running down your cheek
I can feel your body so close to me
I can hear the rain dropping at your feet
Cuz your love was gone
Kabhi jo baadal barse
Main dekhoon tujhe aankhein bharke
Tu lage mujhe pehli baarish ki duaa
Tere pahloo mein reh loon
Main khudko paagal keh loon
Tu gham de ya khushiyaan
Seh loon saathiya
You're killin me
You're bad for me
So why do I feel such ecstasy?
Do you believe
In you and me
How do I stop this jealousy?
I'll never stop fighting till you're with me
I built a castle and you're my queen
Just give me a chance to make you believe it again
24x7 I'll be waiting
Out in the rain till somebody saves me
Don't care if it takes forever to make you believe
Cause you've got to believe it...
Kabhi jo baadal barse
Main dekhoon tujhe aankhein bharke
Tu lage mujhe pehli baarish ki duaa
Tere pahloo mein reh loon
Main khudko paagal keh loon
Tu gham de ya khushiyaan
Seh loon saathiya..
It's like a gun shot went straight through me
Stopped my heart from beating
No - won't let you get away..
Looking at me..
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Friday, July 4, 2014
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àźšீ àźȘாàź°்àź்àźுàźź் àźȘாàź°்àź”ைàźàźł் àźȘூàź”ாàźுàźź்
àźšெàź்àźுàź்àźுàźł் àź€ைàź்àźிàź©்àź± àźźுàźł்àźłாàźுàźź்
àźàźŁ்àźŁே àźàź©் àźàźŁ் àźȘàź்àź àźாàźŻàźź்
àźàź©் àźை àź”ைàź்àź àź€ாàź©ாàź àźàź±ுàźź்!!
Peut ĂȘtre?
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Thursday, May 29, 2014
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The worst feeling in the world
Is NOT feeling your touch
"I miss you like crazy"
I love you so much
The most deafening silence
Is NOT getting to hear your voice
I want us to be together
But we have no choice
The most painful heartache
Is caused by my worries
Are you thinking of me too?
Does my face seem kind of blurry?
Are you starting to forget "us"
Or trying to remember?
"I miss you like crazy"
I'll love you forever!!
Is NOT feeling your touch
"I miss you like crazy"
I love you so much
The most deafening silence
Is NOT getting to hear your voice
I want us to be together
But we have no choice
The most painful heartache
Is caused by my worries
Are you thinking of me too?
Does my face seem kind of blurry?
Are you starting to forget "us"
Or trying to remember?
"I miss you like crazy"
I'll love you forever!!
Freddy!!!!
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Wednesday, May 28, 2014
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I loved you
Although against my will I knew I loved you
Time was standing still because I loved you
But someday I knew you'd fly away
Tomorrow
That could never be a new tomorrow
For I can only think of yesterday
And everyway... I loved you
Such memories of moments when I loved you
I loved you then but you were never mine
A summer to remember for all time
Leaving me with tears from farewell eyes
Those precious moments saying last good-byes
And I loved you
But you were never mine
a beautiful song in my repeat corner the past few days :)
Although against my will I knew I loved you
Time was standing still because I loved you
But someday I knew you'd fly away
Tomorrow
That could never be a new tomorrow
For I can only think of yesterday
And everyway... I loved you
Such memories of moments when I loved you
I loved you then but you were never mine
A summer to remember for all time
Leaving me with tears from farewell eyes
Those precious moments saying last good-byes
And I loved you
But you were never mine
a beautiful song in my repeat corner the past few days :)
Frames and shades - Google Glass!
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Friday, April 11, 2014
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So, I thought I’d share my experience using Google Glass(GG) for the past 5 weeks. I got it on the 2nd of March. It’s been incredibly fun and exciting for me. I’m not so much giving a deep philosophical opinion on the meaning or viability of the technology in this review, but rather a quick summary of what it currently does and doesn’t do, as a reference for folks who are curious or thinking about joining the beta-test program themselves..
As many would already know, GG is a smartphone you wear on your face like glasses. Usually it’s turned off and you see nothing; sometimes it’s awake and you see a ‘heads up display’ floating above your field of view. It’s a full Android device, with a deliberately locked-down and restricted user interface. It has wi-fi, but no cellular connection or GPS ability. When you’re out and about, you have to tether to your phone for data and GPS.
I’ve worn it out in public quite a bit - 95% of the time the response has been popular. People are curious and want demonstrations. In particular, adults are typically wondering what the heck they are, while teenagers ALL seem to know what it is (“OMG, is that Google Glass?!?”). People sometimes quietly point at it from a distance.So it is pretty cool :))
More about it soon!!
So, I thought I’d share my experience using Google Glass(GG) for the past 5 weeks. I got it on the 2nd of March. It’s been incredibly fun and exciting for me. I’m not so much giving a deep philosophical opinion on the meaning or viability of the technology in this review, but rather a quick summary of what it currently does and doesn’t do, as a reference for folks who are curious or thinking about joining the beta-test program themselves..
As many would already know, GG is a smartphone you wear on your face like glasses. Usually it’s turned off and you see nothing; sometimes it’s awake and you see a ‘heads up display’ floating above your field of view. It’s a full Android device, with a deliberately locked-down and restricted user interface. It has wi-fi, but no cellular connection or GPS ability. When you’re out and about, you have to tether to your phone for data and GPS.
I’ve worn it out in public quite a bit - 95% of the time the response has been popular. People are curious and want demonstrations. In particular, adults are typically wondering what the heck they are, while teenagers ALL seem to know what it is (“OMG, is that Google Glass?!?”). People sometimes quietly point at it from a distance.So it is pretty cool :))
Sahara Unlimited
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Saturday, March 29, 2014
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Say hello to my 2014 Jeep Wrangler Unlimited Sahara-ALTITUDE Edition in Bright White. I’m looking forward to getting back out to do some off road-ing and creating new and exciting trip reports! I will post more on it soon :)) A few notable specs below:
3.6L V6 24V VVT Engine
285hp @ 6,400RPM
6-Speed Manual Transmission
18" Spoke Wheels
Body Color 3-Piece Hard Top
Voice recorder
DVD-Audio
Navigation system
7 Speaker Premium Sound
Internal memory capacity (GB): 28 GB
6.5" Touch Screen Display
Class II Receiver Hitch
Trailer Tow w/4-Pin Connector Wiring
Heated front leather seats
Split-bench rear leather seats
Say hello to my 2014 Jeep Wrangler Unlimited Sahara-ALTITUDE Edition in Bright White. I’m looking forward to getting back out to do some off road-ing and creating new and exciting trip reports! I will post more on it soon :)) A few notable specs below:
3.6L V6 24V VVT Engine
285hp @ 6,400RPM
6-Speed Manual Transmission
18" Spoke Wheels
Body Color 3-Piece Hard Top
Voice recorder
DVD-Audio
Navigation system
7 Speaker Premium Sound
Internal memory capacity (GB): 28 GB
6.5" Touch Screen Display
Class II Receiver Hitch
Trailer Tow w/4-Pin Connector Wiring
Heated front leather seats
Split-bench rear leather seats
Contralateral?
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Monday, March 24, 2014
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Only to a certain extent are we prisoners of the past. The present sets us free. We can shape it to our liking, and we had better start thinking about how we would like it. "Past is Past ,we should look ahead into the future" - you may have heard the echoes of these kind of para-phrases many number of times in the past and you will find it rheoteric in the imminent future as well.
As an enthusiast of unraveling the mysteries of the brain, I know one thing for sure, we cannot annul the past.The brain activates itself based on the information which is impregnated in the neurons spanning our neural network. The past experiences are stored in the "damn memory" with the aid of the incorrigible neurons.The input to this infallible process comes to the brain from the all saddistic senses.
A whole network of guerillic neurons are activated by the electrical signals to recognize an event, person, object or feeling. That is why when we come across a partial set of stimuli which we experienced in the past, we get to have the "pleasure" of reminding the past to ourselves. There are stimuli which are almost certainly not to happen in the rest of our life. May be, we could be salvaged from such deja-vu's in the future.
Then, there is also the other kind, those which created the most remarkable impact in your life.The distinguishing part is that, it might have been a part of everything which might have been inseparable from you.We could always get the laudable aid of the imperishable artifacts, music, stereophonic names, blended events, dodgy calendar, polyphonic tunes and what not. Even if we can manage to find some courage to annihilate them we cannot evacuate the damn data in the neurons.We can pretend the absence of the omnipotent stimuli around us.We are caught up in the prison of the past. It can be apparently denied but not defied.
As an enthusiast of unraveling the mysteries of the brain, I know one thing for sure, we cannot annul the past.The brain activates itself based on the information which is impregnated in the neurons spanning our neural network. The past experiences are stored in the "damn memory" with the aid of the incorrigible neurons.The input to this infallible process comes to the brain from the all saddistic senses.
A whole network of guerillic neurons are activated by the electrical signals to recognize an event, person, object or feeling. That is why when we come across a partial set of stimuli which we experienced in the past, we get to have the "pleasure" of reminding the past to ourselves. There are stimuli which are almost certainly not to happen in the rest of our life. May be, we could be salvaged from such deja-vu's in the future.
Then, there is also the other kind, those which created the most remarkable impact in your life.The distinguishing part is that, it might have been a part of everything which might have been inseparable from you.We could always get the laudable aid of the imperishable artifacts, music, stereophonic names, blended events, dodgy calendar, polyphonic tunes and what not. Even if we can manage to find some courage to annihilate them we cannot evacuate the damn data in the neurons.We can pretend the absence of the omnipotent stimuli around us.We are caught up in the prison of the past. It can be apparently denied but not defied.
At Ease
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Sunday, January 26, 2014
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We all have to learn different lessons in life. IMO - everyone come into our life for a reason. At the same time, each person has to
come to their own realizations on their own time. This is also known as karma.
However you view it, when we adopt a broader view, we're able to get out
of our limited thinking.
Reason - Somehow, the thinking/researching/sharing/learning process of the purpose of life or my existence is somehow like food to me. Like the favorite food that has the capacity to stimulate the appetite, prompt me to eat more of it, and motivate me to pursue it. Through the course of it, the excitement of having found something that answers my deepest questions is unbound. Naturally, like a person in love, I wanted to share this love with everyone, especially my friends/family and closed ones. Hence it disappointed and frustrated me when they did not share that excitement. It took years for me to see the bigger picture – they have decades of conditioning behind them which might be standing against the concepts of spirituality that are very commonplace for us now. Though it is very common in India to have grown up with terms like karma, past lives, etc., these are “conditions” taken for granted, rather than conditions that can be consciously influenced. This understanding still feels as strange to them(excluding my western friends) as having cornflakes for breakfast.
Problem - One good example that I can put forth here is My Parents and their Married Life. It(Marriage)is often a status quo. While our parents may have got along very well (irrespective of whether the marriage was arranged or out of love) in our childhoods, as they begin to get old, they begin to reminisce a lot. Whether it is because of menopause, or a constant sense of a past weighing them down all the time, or simply a physical condition translating into irritability, parents can get into fights where they might bring up old issues and buried emotions that had no room earlier. It can destroy our perception of them as being “ideal” parents having an ideal marriage even if we are exposed to our friends’ families falling apart. It can disillusion us and leave us confused. I know I went through (still do) hell in my mind struggling to choose the right from wrong of my parents doing.
Understanding - The mirroring theory is the most artistically at work here. I’ve often observed that if there is even a single thought wandering in my subconscious against my decision to break a paradigm, it will get projected in their thinking. Like it or not, parents exist in the same thought field as you and are more sensitive to picking up thoughts from this field, especially when one is defensive or in conflict about a decision. Clean up your thinking and they certainly respond. Secondly, the goal of acting on something we deeply care about and the goal of rebelling against authority can sometimes get mixed up and the consequences can be very messy. To ensure that what you feel like doing is only for your sake, and not for the sake of proving something to your parents takes absolute courage – because it demands your total honesty to yourself. Ages ago when I was not ready to realize the depth of it my grandma (mom's mom) had wisely pointed out that this is where guilt can be a precise pointer –when there is guilt, the act almost always is being carried out as a rebellion against something rather than rising from a heartfelt intent. Thirdly, acknowledging the conditioning that worrying = good parenting in the realm of unconscious parenting. The only way I’ve found that has worked around this is to casually bring up the discussion and being a willing and open listener, providing a safe space for them to voice those fears out for themselves.
Practice - Parents have often rushed through life – through their careers, babies, investments, taking care of our schooling, then college and marriage and now the train of doings seems to have halted abruptly. Often things may have gone unexpressed between them at various points in time due to various reasons. Now the emotions and memories seem to be catching up. When I learnt to relate this way, their disruptions and issues didn’t seem personal to
me (even if I happened to be the subject of those conversations). I stopped interfering and just watched. These are two people working out their soul’s journeys with each other. Why interfere?” I remember my grandma saying. When they ask me to take sides, I check within if I can give them an authentic, balanced viewpoint. If not, I just tell them frankly that I don’t know what to say and won't be the best to judge either. To put in your confusion along with a train of emotions for “working it out” is to add to the mess.
Continuation - Maybe it is always best to give everything its well deserved time. But always remember, in the path of consciousness, parents are our biggest mirrors. At one point life asks us to stop viewing them as just caretakers and changes our roles into caregivers. For some this happens very early. For some, the change happens and takes us by surprise. Either way, the final step is to grow out of the roles and start viewing them as two unique individuals you are born to, so as to work out our lessons together with them. It is indeed a defining moment when you learn to love and be there for them as if you’ve completely chosen it, rather than as a chore or running in a default mode. While becoming a parent undoubtedly has its rewarding moments (which I have only heard about second hand), transforming into a conscious person in their midst unabashedly has beautiful rewards. And this I can tell by first-hand experience. The grass is definitely green on this side.
Reason - Somehow, the thinking/researching/sharing/learning process of the purpose of life or my existence is somehow like food to me. Like the favorite food that has the capacity to stimulate the appetite, prompt me to eat more of it, and motivate me to pursue it. Through the course of it, the excitement of having found something that answers my deepest questions is unbound. Naturally, like a person in love, I wanted to share this love with everyone, especially my friends/family and closed ones. Hence it disappointed and frustrated me when they did not share that excitement. It took years for me to see the bigger picture – they have decades of conditioning behind them which might be standing against the concepts of spirituality that are very commonplace for us now. Though it is very common in India to have grown up with terms like karma, past lives, etc., these are “conditions” taken for granted, rather than conditions that can be consciously influenced. This understanding still feels as strange to them(excluding my western friends) as having cornflakes for breakfast.
Understanding - The mirroring theory is the most artistically at work here. I’ve often observed that if there is even a single thought wandering in my subconscious against my decision to break a paradigm, it will get projected in their thinking. Like it or not, parents exist in the same thought field as you and are more sensitive to picking up thoughts from this field, especially when one is defensive or in conflict about a decision. Clean up your thinking and they certainly respond. Secondly, the goal of acting on something we deeply care about and the goal of rebelling against authority can sometimes get mixed up and the consequences can be very messy. To ensure that what you feel like doing is only for your sake, and not for the sake of proving something to your parents takes absolute courage – because it demands your total honesty to yourself. Ages ago when I was not ready to realize the depth of it my grandma (mom's mom) had wisely pointed out that this is where guilt can be a precise pointer –when there is guilt, the act almost always is being carried out as a rebellion against something rather than rising from a heartfelt intent. Thirdly, acknowledging the conditioning that worrying = good parenting in the realm of unconscious parenting. The only way I’ve found that has worked around this is to casually bring up the discussion and being a willing and open listener, providing a safe space for them to voice those fears out for themselves.
me (even if I happened to be the subject of those conversations). I stopped interfering and just watched. These are two people working out their soul’s journeys with each other. Why interfere?” I remember my grandma saying. When they ask me to take sides, I check within if I can give them an authentic, balanced viewpoint. If not, I just tell them frankly that I don’t know what to say and won't be the best to judge either. To put in your confusion along with a train of emotions for “working it out” is to add to the mess.
Continuation - Maybe it is always best to give everything its well deserved time. But always remember, in the path of consciousness, parents are our biggest mirrors. At one point life asks us to stop viewing them as just caretakers and changes our roles into caregivers. For some this happens very early. For some, the change happens and takes us by surprise. Either way, the final step is to grow out of the roles and start viewing them as two unique individuals you are born to, so as to work out our lessons together with them. It is indeed a defining moment when you learn to love and be there for them as if you’ve completely chosen it, rather than as a chore or running in a default mode. While becoming a parent undoubtedly has its rewarding moments (which I have only heard about second hand), transforming into a conscious person in their midst unabashedly has beautiful rewards. And this I can tell by first-hand experience. The grass is definitely green on this side.2014
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Thursday, January 2, 2014
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Yet again; The days has FLOWN and here we are in 2014!!! Before I forget - or get carried away let me say to thee - May the sunshine of happiness always shine above us. May the dove of peace rest and live in all our homes. May the dense forest of love surround us all year round. May us all have a lovely New Year. Best-est wishes from me to us :))
