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Raaga.. in my thoughts..

| Friday, April 30, 2010
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I'm allowing myself a rest and learning how to be the most that I can be, without becoming overwhelmed. Listen! Music inspires the better in me.. you too :)







"You're really lovely..Underneath it all..You want to love me..Underneath it all
I'm really lovely..Underneath it all..And you're really lovely"







"Jane tu mera kya hai..Jane tu mere kya tha...Tu hi mera har pal..Tu hi har lamha tha"







"Moodamal moodi maraithadhu..Thaanagha poothu varughudhu..Thedaamal thedi kidaithadhu ingey..Inge oru inbam vandhu niraya..Eppodhu en unmai nilai ariya.."


Too weak, for all her heart's endeavor;
To set its struggling passion free;
From pride, and vainer ties dissever,
And give herself to me forever.
But passion would prevail!

Raaga.. in my thoughts..

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Sorry!

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Someone said that I am a masochist in a way that I don’t want to move on and I keep on hurting myself by doing the same thing. As I assess myself, eh….I did/will do everything for me to forget what I felt. I always ask you to go out and to hangout somewhere because for me that is the best thing to forget and be happy. For that reason, I also want to apologize to my Angel.

I’m sorry to be the reason why your parents or siblings are nagging at you because you go home late most of the time.
I’m sorry to be the reason why you are not able to focus on your priorities.
I’m sorry to be the reason why you lose time for your family and special someone. And…
I’m sorry to be the reason why you get headaches---…..

“I remember the times we spent together,
Were not enough, it used to
Feel like dreaming
Except thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much”

I’m doing my very best to get over and forget, but I can’t help it to feel the pain and sadness because I miss ****. I’m sorry…..my friend.

I chose to hang-on rather than to move-on immediately, because I want to feel the pain more to their smallest strands so when I let go……..there is NO TURNING BACK. But Also because I still have hope!

Sorry!

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Finding you!

| Tuesday, April 27, 2010
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As I watch this spectacular view of Sugar Loaf MT, MD I marvel at how much we are a product of our childhoods and yet, many a times, rise over and above it, to become functional people in our own right, despite the torn psyche of the past.

Many of you folks have heard me say, "where there is a grave problem, there is also HOPE" The past few days I am hearing it said more to myself.. funny how life makes a 360 degree turn all the time. 3 - 4 years ago I was this happy go luck guy, not that I am not now.. just that I have started to slow down to find the true nature of my soul. Taking driving as a metaphor, it is making me hit gently on the brakes, slow down a little and just go on cruise mode. It is extinguishing the volatile flames of my impatience and anger, and dousing it a bit. The aftermath is a cool silence, it is making me introspect.

A few days ago I was asked; what is the cause of this sudden change? why me? Though I did try and explain what came to my mind at the very instant via our modern tool of (mal) communication, (fast) sms! I would like to add a few more here, hoping maybe one day(slow- the downfall to sms.. lol!) it will reach its destination. I am a believer in Karma, what goes around comes around, and it all happens for a reason. I am till this moment living a life that I see possible, in essence I mean that which you manifest if before you.

This thought/idea/principal of my life is not a sudden change but one that has been in the making since my birth! As I sit back and recollect the past years of my life, I can now (though not in HD) see my life to be a drawing of my inner, deeper, sub conscious desires. In effect I am living what I had always wanted, I wanted to be independent, I wanted to take up challenges and proving it wrong, I wanted to live outside of the box. And a few who knows me up close and personal would agree that this day my life is just as I had described, with tons of challenges and equal amount of independence. And one by one I am proving the challenges I face everyday wrong.

Believe in me - Dearest mine; This is meant to be. If not why should we cross again? I did what I did because I failed to see today.. but now that I have I won't make the mistake again! I admire the sincerity of thee! Not falling short is thy independent nature. I'd like to make what you are into something so wonderous in this life of mine. And I realize the only way to get what you want, is to go after it, mindfully while asking for grace along the way. Plus, I need to firmly commit myself to change. And that is what I am doing here, right now. So starting tomorrow, for the next 1 week (yes 1 week alone)….I want to institute these changes with determination and strength. And I want to see how this one week impacts me. If at the end of it, I feel good about the changes, then perhaps, I will have the energy of positive impact to carry me into the next week, and the next and the next. For now, it starts with tomorrow.

Finding you!

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Raavan

| Monday, April 26, 2010
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My Favorite is Behene de... simply because of these lines:

"Mera pal pal ang ang bhar diya,
Tune jaan pe junoon sa kar diya,
Mera hai kya jo main haar doon,
Jaan teri hai tujh pe vaar doon.
Beh jaa, beh jaa, Chal tod kinaare ko,
Beh jaa, beh jaa, dhar le majdhaare ko,
Chingaari uda ke raakh se, ek boond gira ke aankh se,
Chalne ka ishara kar gaya ... "









Such simple and beautiful lyrics.. ok! Also because the song has a very south Indian feel to it :) But I am sure all the folks who are new or is yet to hear south Indian songs would have no clue but still be attached to the beauty!! It is such a soulful track and Karthick's rendering is sure to make you feel tied/surrendered! Equally awesome is Mohammad Irfan, one of the participant in Star Voice of India Talent Show.

The next track in my countdown would be Khili Re by my favorite gal from UK Reena Bhardwaj! This girl first stole my heart with;









"koi anjaani si cheez meri saanson se lipatne lagti hai..main dil ke kareeb aa jati hoon..dil mere kareeb aa jata hai..ye rishta kya kehlaata haiiii!"

The track still remains in the top ten song to be looped over and over again! Anyway getting back to Khili Re, which showcases the marvel of Tablas is very slow, so beware if you are not a fan of Hindustani or Carnatic which the songs draws a lot from.

Moving on, Thok De Killi by Sukhwinder Singh and Am'Nico is obviously very peppy with Sukhwinder!Lots of groove with beautiful drums. The song has the Rahman fanatics admiration with tons of thumping effect.
Then there is Beera, Kata Kata & Ranjha Ranjha which I am still listening to, so review shall continue.. :)

Raavan

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la la la..

| Sunday, April 25, 2010
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From North Jersey it took us two and a half hours to get to Maryland on a cloudy Saturday. We left around 8pm and stopped at a rest stop for snacks along the way. It was a good break to let the pups run around and refuel. We arrived around 1030pm and finally sleep was starting to peek through. But seriously, I had fun ..lovely friends, lunches and evenings!! Didn't miss the fun - As this day comes only once!







"Coz' my feeling is just so right..As we dance by the moonlight..Can't you see you're my daylight
Lady i just feel like..I won't get you out of my mind"

la la la..

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Temporary

| Saturday, April 24, 2010
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I know I have said it a million times.. but it is indeed very true! Unlike the perception of most..I'm a friendly person who often tries to look on the bright side of things. So after posting my downer oriented short story my life took two unexpected turns. One was really really bad and one that brightens my day. The bad turn is only bad because I can be emotionally stunted at times.

So that one bad turn, which is still unresolved but I'm choosing to ignore right now, turned into spending more time with myself(a good thing). It actually helped me realize and come to know that this is temporary, so no worries!

For several days I felt anxious and uncertain about this decision.
“what if” moments crept into my thoughts.
“What if I left something behind that I wish I would not have?”
“What if something was not worth the wait?”
“What if…this and what if that?”
You know what? There are no more “What ifs”.
By unloading twenty years of my past I am now at a point where I feel anything is possible. Arti, your wish will be granted! I am working on the positive ending for the story.. She will be united with him! But, for now I need you to keep your fingers crossed because I really really really want it. Starting over is not easy after a break up. It has taken me a while to finally feel free and to embrace the beauty and magic of letting go of my past while at the same time starting my life over from scratch. So believing in what I want and giving all I have for it including time is not an issue! My luck is changing.....

In other much more important news I took the ramp at a Bollywood fashion show! I will post pics as I get them.. I did not bring my camera so no pictures from me :( Well, it was a hectic day for me, I had my coaching at work, an after hour event(work again!), followed by the fashion show and I had to leave early to drive to NJ. So, excuse me! ;)

Temporary

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Living a lie..

| Friday, April 23, 2010
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Is this what life is all about? Her head was spining as she recalled; Life isn’t the same anymore since he stepped into her life. He was the love of her life. Although her positive outlook towards life and cheerful nature won her many friends, she frequently wishes to have a close boyfriend whom she can share her woes and joy. She believed very much in true love and decided to take her time to wait for her right guy to appear. She believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for her, but none came.

Every summer, her close friend would return from Paris to look her up. She was aware that he still held some hope of kindling romance with her. She did not wish to mislead him in any way. So she would always get one of her boy friends to pose as her steady whenever he came back.

For several years she continued to get a different guy to pose as her romantic interest. So whenever he came to visit her, he would be led into believing that nothing could develop between her and the guy.

He, however took all those rather well, often trying to casually tease her about her different boyfriends, or so, as it seemed! In fact, the guy often wept in secret whenever he saw her with another guy, but he was too proud to admit it. Still, every summer, he returned, hoping to re-kindle some form of romance. But each time, he returned to Paris feeling disappointed.

One day he finally decided that he could not play that game any longer. Therefore, he confronted her and professed that after all those years, she was still the only lady that he had ever loved. Although the girl knew of his feelings for her, she was still taken back and have never expected him to react that way. She always thought that he would slowly forget about her over time and come to terms that there is nothing between them. Although she was touched by his undying love for her and wanted so much to accept him, she remembered why she rejected him in the first place-she was not ready. So she hardened her heart and turned him down cruelly. Since then, three years have passed and the guy never return anymore. They never even wrote to each other. The girl went on with her life..... still searching for the one but somehow deep inside her, she missed him.

Summer of 2008, she went to her friend's party alone. "Hey, how come all alone this year? Where are all your boyfriends? What happened to that Paris dude who joins you every summer?", asked one of her friends. She felt warm and comforted by her friend's queries about him, still she just surged on.

Then, she came upon one of her many boy friends whom she once requested to pose as her steady. She wanted so much to ignore him ..... not that she was impolite, but because at that moment, she just didn't feel comfortable with those boy friends anymore. It was almost like she was being judged by them. One guy saw her and shouted across the floor for her. Unable to avoid him, she went up to acknowledge him.

“Hi......how are you? Enjoying the party?" the guy asked.
"Sure.....yeah!", she replied.
He was slightly tipsy..... must be from the whiskey in his hand. He continued,
"Why...? Don't you need someone to pose as your boy friend this year?" Then she answered, "No, there is no need for that anymore......"
Before she can continue, she was interrupted, "Oh yes! Must have found a boyfriend! You haven't been searching for one for the past years, right?" The girl looked up, as if she has struck gold, her face beamed and looked directly at the drunken guy. She replied, "Yes......you are right! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years."

With that, the girl darted across the floor and out the door, leaving the guy in much bewilderment. She finally realized that she has already found her dream guy, and he was.....the Paris guy all along!

The tipsy guy has said something that awoken her. All along she has found her guy. That was why she did not bother to look further when she realized he was not coming back. It was not any specific guy she was seeking! It was perfection that she wanted, and yes.....perfection!!

Relationship is something both parties should work on. Realizing that she had let away someone so important in her life, she decided to call him immediately. Her whole mind was flooded with fear. She was afraid that he might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore..... For once, she felt the fear of losing someone.

As it usually is, the line was quite hard to get through, especially an overseas call. She tried again and again, never giving up. Finally, she got through......precisely at 1200 midnight. She confessed her love for him and the guy was moved to tears. It seemed that he never got over her! Even after so long, he was still waiting for her, never giving up.

She was so excited to begin her new chapter, to meet him and begin their lives. She decided to fly to Paris to join him. It was the happiest time of their lives! But their happy time was short-lived. Two days before she was supposed to fly to Paris, she received a call from his brother. He had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver. He passed away after 6 hours in a coma.

She was devastated, as it was a complete loss. Why, did fate play such cruel games with her? She cursed death for taking him away from her, denying even one last look at him! How cruel? She cursed! How she damned the Gods...!! How she hated herself....for taking so long to realize her mistake!! She was living a lie!!! That was in 2009.

The moral of this story is : -
Treasure what you have...
Time is too slow for those who wait;
Too swift for those who fear;
Too long for those who grief;
Too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity.

All you folks out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together with that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realize that it is too late.

Living a lie..

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Thoughts of this Pagal..

| Monday, April 19, 2010
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We pick on ourselves;
When we don't meet our own expectations.
We feel sad and angry;
When others don't meet the expectations we put on them.
I am not a great hero nor done any great deeds;
But this much I can be, a bearer of hope.
To let the pained soul know love is possible;
If we would just stop expecting things.
We could save ourselves a lot of unhappiness;
If we make our heart a Temple of Peace;
Flowing with love for all those who surround us.
If we make our mind a Temple of Peace;
Acting with calmness and clarity throughout all.
If we make our eyes a Temple of Peace;
Looking with compassion on all we see.
If we make our ears a Temple of Peace;
Listening with truth to all that we hear.
Kaash.. that I believe possible!

Thoughts of this Pagal..

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Past due..

| Sunday, April 18, 2010
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It is your ever thoughtful and beautiful nature that causes your love to find expression in such tender gentle ways, and prompts you to do the little things that mean so much to me, though directly it may be simply because they are what you want to do.

I just love to think about you and talk about you in so far as I may - your honesty, your pleasing manners and attentions to others, your bright, clean, healthy look, and your general orderliness, your ability to turn your hand to anything and to fit into any place. Oh, a hundred and one things I could not have enough time to mention. It is you through and through. Everything about you admire, even the sans scent.

Talking about scent, I finally made it to the hookah bar with my bro and friends last night. A week or more past due!! lol Anyway we had lots of fun, Maruan was excited to see us in there.. thanks buddy! We were in there swaying and exhaling away for almost three hours! Just about then my friend who was the sponsor decided he needs to go to a strip club.. I have nothing against it but I just don't enjoy the nature of these clubs.

But anyway since he was the sponsor he got to chose what to do next. It was twenty past 12 when I got my Angels call. I might sound crazy but this is why she is my Angel, I smartly used the call to find a way out of the strip club and back home by 1:30 - 2:00. Overall I had a relaxing night. I am happy :)

Past due..

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Expectation..

| Saturday, April 17, 2010
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As I sit here tonight, I wonder if she wonders, if this is all for real, I couldn't stand to see her cry because of me, that would make me sad. I only have this to tell her, expectation is a powerful attraction force. Expect the thing you want, and don't expect the things you don't want.....because what you want becomes the truth. I know what I want! And I will give all I have to get it, I just need you to believe in me and walk with me. Time is never a problem to me..patience is virtue and I know that, eternity would not be enough to give you.. I want your happiness, as much as I want my own.

I’ve been scrabbling for words lately, trying to find the head space between being stupid busy at work and mood swinging in my head. I’m full of thoughts-almost to bursting. To the point where I can peel through them. I feel like an onion with layers, some moldy and rotten, some remaining sweet and fragrant. But a stable onion, able to point and shoot in the right direction, my sulfuric acid won't go to waste. I am peeling my rotten past away to expose my sweetness, I know you will understand with time, time that I will make for you my friend(first).

A fwd from an old friend I like to tell myself, here I share:

You own it. You can make it happen. Anything is possible. There *is* a magic pill – yes it works, but only…
If:
You’re ready and willing to make the changes.
To take responsibility.
To own your processes.
To do the do.
I’m not going to fix you and I’m not going to do it for you. (Only you can do that.)

Expectation..

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Twoogle!

| Wednesday, April 14, 2010
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Google launches a service that indexes and ranks content from micro blogging services like Twitter. Google's Twitter search function is available in English and will be made generally available over the next few days. According to Google, only tweets going back to February 2010 will be available immediately. Eventually, said Google, it will be able to index Twitter messages as far back as Twitter's March 21, 2006 debut. Check it out! if you have a twitter account ;)

Twoogle!

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(F)kIrLaYnOU

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Just a thought - If you never planned a thing in your life, never had any goals or aspirations—never thought about your next move, you might find yourself in a constant state of improvisation. On the other hand, you can try to plan your life out to the last detail—but life has a way of working out in ways you could have never planned for.

To me, living is about planning for a variety of scenarios—anticipating and developing a strategy, but not being so rigid as to lose the capacity to improvise when things don't go as planned.

The small drum that lives within our body is what keeps us alive. It doesn’t need to be loud to be noticed, just a soft thump, thump thump, thump, thump thump. It’s as if it were someone knocking, waiting for us to open our hearts and let whoever is knocking reign in us.

(F)kIrLaYnOU

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My takes..

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I was watching Fight Club for the millionth time recently, there is a quote that I adore so much in the movie which goes; "This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time."

Then the popular song by Coldplay goes;

Please, please, please
Come on and sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, out, out
Come on and sing it now, now, now
Come on and sing it

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah

The quote above and the song that follows are the state of my mind now...We've had different experiences and have different opinions and perspectives. That being said, we respect one another enough to value those differences. I have insights. ;-)

I have heard some tell me that I am a skeptical person. In particular, people who are close to me. I will have to agree with them, I do raise a lot of questions, I have to completely understand anything before I can accept it. I do not see any wrong in it. As a matter of fact I think we all should do that and not just be followers. I question not because I do not believe in it but because I am trying to understand it better. I'm not at all particular as to where they stand today with regard to those beliefs, but I feel that without questioning your beliefs, you are basically a robot. To me, that is dull.

I find that people who are raised pragmatic tend to have a healthy value system, and a conscience. They tend to be more apt to be givers, rather than merely takers. Most of my best friends, the people who have stuck with me through thick and thin, fall into this category. To be a giver you have to understand and to understand you have to question.

Personally, I could not imagine being with someone who is absolutely dogmatic and beyond reason. I am happy with someone who is pragmatic, who could maintain a little perspective, and not force me to conform to their beliefs. As many close to me would agree, I won't force anyone to conform to my beliefs.

I think that, for all the lip service paid to being open minded, it is actually a very rare quality. The most human of all character flaws is ego. Ego says that what is mine is right, and must be protected at all costs. Any affront to my ideas or my beliefs, is a personal attack, and so forth. And, as much as I'd like to believe that I'm somehow better than that, even I slip into that pattern of thought.

On those grounds (ego) alone, I think that it is some what difficult for two people who have diametrically opposed viewpoints, to carry out a healthy relationship. I'm certainly not saying it can't happen, only that it is difficult. There are many aspects which makes a healthy relationship, to me open communication and honesty is one the most important aspect. It is because I can share my doubts with you without hurting you and vice-versa, I know we will have a beautiful future together.

We're often told that opposites attract, but I don't think that's true. I think we look for people who tend to share our way of looking at the world. We feel a kinship with them, and a bond. It is all the ways that we are alike that draw us together. Difference fosters understanding and tolerance, a crucial piece to solve our puzzle.

The next track on my win amp goes ; Tu hi re tuu hii re tere bina main kaise jii'uun aa jaa re aa jaa re yuun hii tarpa na tuu mujhko..

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Last night..

| Sunday, April 11, 2010
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I had no idea the amount of people who read my blog until I stopped posting for a week. Tons of family and friends who don't leave comments! sent me an e-mail LOL anyway thanks, Daniele, Niro, Acca, Shankar, Amit, Aarthy and you for your input; So anyway last night was fun filled and crazy per the usual. I have no time it seems and the time I do have it's like I am cramming everything I can into it. I took my brother and a friend to Ziki, Japanese cuisine. The menu has a very nice variety of appetizers, entrées, and a wonderful assortment of desserts. You can dine at the bar, which we chose to do as the restaurant was packed. Good food, good times :) We were thinking about going to the Hookah bar in DC right after but had to slip back in the house just to feed my loving pups. And things changed right from then..

Then I was going to go to Sals' birthday party at the Napoleon Bistro & Lounge in Adams Morgan. But, it was all very last minute: getting a spot at the photography conference I had been coveting, which included the night in a posh hotel away sans bro as well as the birthday party offer. My initial response to all of it was a resounding YES! Then, as I got the spot for the conference, I began to second-guess myself.

What am I thinking? I' can always go to the hookah bar with my bro and friend, Sal would not miss me too much with all the gals and fun at the lounge ;) And I need to get myself noticeable in the photography field where I hope to make a name. So, a big sorry to my bro and crew and Sal.

The conference itself was well worth the night. I am glad I had the opportunity to go.

Last night..

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Happy Birthday Mother!

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Happy Birthday Mom;
Wishing you a day,
as sunny as your smile,
as warm as your heart,
a day as wonderful as you are!

Though I fight with you at home,
You are the one to whom I share everything.
Though you still treat me as a baby,
and scold me when I do something wrong to you,
you are everything to me ....
I Love You!!!!

Happy Birthday Mother!

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Students?

| Friday, April 9, 2010
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Al right folks, as promised here is my view on the Student loan legislation that Obama signed recently. Before that just sharing something that I think about student loans; I feel that like the current mortgage fiasco we are dealing with, this is another big big problem that the US is going to have to deal with at some point, likely sooner rather than later. But that's another topic... The real issue is that the "loanees" (AKA students AKA generally young and naive and with generally little true financial acumen) carry a burden that few other borrowers face - the inability to discharge your debt via bankruptcy. So my point; no loan is a good loan! Trust me I know!! I am dealing with a few myself.
Basically this legislation takes away the student loans from banks and funds it directly. So many would be happy to know that the money borrowed from in college will be the lenders they pay every month to. No need to worry about loans being sold and resold. But like are any other legislation's obviously there are good and bad. So, let look at the Pros first:

Basically all schools starting this 2010 summer will be offering "direct lending" which cuts out the corporate lending middleman, meaning a lower interest rate! This legislation also reduces IBR (Income-Based Repayment) to 10% of above-line income instead of 15%, and forgives non-PI (Private Investor) loans after 20 years instead of 25... but this part will only apply to loans initiated after July 1, 2014. Nobody currently in or applying will benefit from this part of the reform (although it will definitely benefit the future generations). This makes me sad face, as a few I care about are currently in schll.. lol

Now the bad part; The biggest losers obviously would be the middleman, banks. So banks' easy profit off of these student loans while the government bears the risk would now be gone. Which also means there is no competition. It also means banks would now be down in profits that is used to lend back to the community. So this might create a slow but a clear way for a few banks to go down.

So the bottom line; though waste will decrease, I doubt and will be very surprised if the program becomes more efficient and has less problems. Here is another perspective for you guys to think about; How are college graduates supposed to juggle student loan payments with the realities of an imploding job market and family members too caught up in their own financial turmoil to help out? With all the attention focused on failing banks and government bailouts, the very legitimate panic felt by such graduates risks getting lost in the shuffle.

There you go my two worthless pennies ;)

Students?

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Open!

| Monday, April 5, 2010
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Recently I read a paper entitled “Open Access: Why should we have it?” As someone who promotes open thinking, open source software, open data formats and other forms of openness, it is rewarding to see that there is tangible evidence of the value of these practices. Although the paper focuses on open access journals/articles in the physical sciences, I think that it is safe to generalize the results to all areas of academic research.

Talking of academic research, I had to do a statistic analysis report recently.. whew! I don’t miss my school days at all!! LOL Well, this specific article I was given to report on was a disaster! Personally, I'm not very much of a "stick to a diet" for health benefits kind of person. I believe in eating what appeals to me but in the right quantity. And a good mix of exercise would do the trick for a healthy life, no need for any Cocoa/Tea diet!!

I am all about being open and clear with my thoughts and ways. That does not mean I am going to discuss my life history with everyone who comes around. Rather, I am someone who values open communication of my thoughts with the people that matter to me. As many of my friends would agree, it is dangerously easy for anyone to get the wrong idea about me and my intentions without talking to me. I am not to be blamed for it too; I do carry myself with pride. Nothing wrong with that in my book, though, I will agree that it can intimidate many. Egoistic some call, hard headed others say, vein some murmur, full of your self many joke.

But those of you who have had the opportunity to know me would (hopefully) agree otherwise. And honestly it does not matter if they (the one who knows me) agree or not ‘cause I know what I am and that is all that matters! Et voila, a brilliant finishing statement to the above paragraph! Lol

In other stories I recently got my second!! ticket for not wearing my seat belt!!!! It was a spell cast by my angel, who was only wishing me well. I have promised myself to always wear my seatbelt from then on. So, if I am with any one of you guys and not wearing my seat belt, please remind me and I promise not to argue or ignore.
I have not forgotten the take on the student loan post that I promised.. so look out for it soon :) Also check out Kurbaan, a Hindi movie which was quite interesting. My review to follow..

By the way, start being more open to your thoughts of me, with me! Please..

“asamyatatmana yogo
dusprapa iti me matih
vasyatmana tu yatata
sakyo ’vaptum upayatah”

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Date :Monday, April 5, 2010
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From the White House

| Friday, April 2, 2010
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The post below by Kal Pen representing the White House triggered enough interest to be re posted here :) I will be posting my view about it soon.. till then read on..



Making Higher Education More Affordable
Posted by Kalpen Modi on March 30, 2010 at 12:00 PM EDT

The President believes that for America to compete in the 21st century, we’ll need a highly educated workforce that is second to none. But one of the things holding us back from this achievement is soaring tuition costs at colleges and universities around the country. Too many students and families struggle to make ends meet just to fulfill the dream of a college education. And when students are unable to afford access to higher education or graduate with a degree, our economy suffers.

That’s why President Obama signed today a historic piece of legislation that delivers real reforms and critical investments to our higher education system. By strengthening the Pell Grant program, investing in community colleges, extending support for Historically Black Colleges and other Minority Serving Institutions, and helping student borrowers manage their student loan debt, we will make college more affordable and enable more Americans to earn a college degree.

Lifelong educators like Dr. Jill Biden, wife of Vice President Joe Biden, know how important these reforms will be to our higher education system.

This legislation means $40 billion more dollars in the Pell Grant program to ensure that eligible students receive an award, and that awards increase to keep pace with rising tuition. And a $2 billion investment over four years for community colleges to develop, improve, and provide education and career training programs. Students will be able to choose to limit their student loan payments to 10% of their income, with any remaining balance forgiven after 20 years. And public service workers can have their loans forgiven after 10 years.

Because special interests have been benefiting from taxpayer subsidies for too long, we’re cutting out the middlemen by ending government subsidies currently given to banks and other financial institutions that make guaranteed federal student loans. According to the non-partisan Congressional Budget Office, ending these wasteful subsidies will free up nearly $68 billion for college affordability and deficit reduction over the next 11 years. So these investments are not only paid for, but they’ll reduce the deficit in the long run.

Because of the legislation enacted today, we’re finally undertaking meaningful reform to our education system and making college more affordable and accessible.

For more information on these federal student aid programs, please go to http://www.studentaid.ed.gov/, or call 1-800-4FED-AID.

Kalpen Modi is an Associate Director for the Office of Public Engagement

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Life in A .. Metro

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Inspiration drawn from "Un amour de femme" and "The Apartment", Life…In A Metro doesn’t quite manage to make a statement specific to its title (perhaps Mumbai city itself could have been used as a stronger character), it is a charming film that enthralls and emotes, leaving you with a smile. It falls in the grey, untapped area between mainstream and parallel (no pun intended) cinema – a film that dares to be real and filmy, dramatic, and funny, without overdoing it. Kudos to Anurag Basu for making an intelligible film that should be accessible and appreciable across a diverse audience. If we cannot appreciate this quality effort, we lose the right to crib about the dearth of quality in Hindi cinema.

Music played a vital role in the entire show.It's comeback of Rock in the form of beautiful Hindi lyrics. Also no group dance and foreign locations, and sans female voice makes it an offbeat movie. Cheers to Pritam Chakroborty.

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Mapping..

| Thursday, April 1, 2010
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I did not sleep last night, just a couple hours of rest with frequent trips to the bathroom. No, it was not because I wasn't sleepy but because my head is clogged with mucus!! Sigh!

Mapping Memories
"Dream and Destiny are two separate dimensions of life, but it would be a ” FANTASTIC ” combination when they finally meet.." said an old friend; I believe in making my own destiny, by believing in what I do. But then there are times when I have to remind myself not to make someone a priority when they only make me an option..

Well, we were talking about our primary/secondary school days together and the things we used to do when we had no worries or commitments. I miss those times! I miss cutting class to play soccer in the wet and muddy field, our first glimpse of playboy in the technical class, the secret (still!!!)trip we made after our literature class, the "who is macho" fight we would have behind our school buildings, silly and retarded things we used to do to impress girls.. good times!!

I was not the top scorer in academics but never the less I liked and did well in Literature (I loved to analyse the characters portrayed in the stories), English (it challenged my communication skill), Geography (it gave me the opportunity to learn about the world and instilled my desire to travel) and, of course, Chemistry (it offers me solutions and made me who I am today!) and more because I loved my chemistry teacher, she had the most brilliant sense of dressing and she always smells good.

I remembered that when I was 14, I was confronted with the decision of my life. I had completed my lower secondary studies and I knew that choosing the subjects that I would be studying in upper secondary will determine my path in life. The truth is, what I want to do cannot be taught in textbooks. I wanted to be a world traveller. Yes, I want a career as a world traveller. Many people have dreams to travel around the world, I simply want to travel for a living.

Today, I realize that I have in a way achieved what I desired, I have travelled to many parts of this world thanks to my father who still travels due to his profession. Confirming my believe in making my own destiny. Though I have in other ways deviated from my childhood desire I still know that I am not far away from achieving it. Hope fully soon enough, I would find my way out of this temporary confusion and be united to/with my desire/soul mate.

As they say everyday is special if we think so..every moment is memorable if we feel so..everyone is unique if we see so..life is wonderful if we lead so..



"Ab To Aa Bhi Jao Na Janam"
Feeling the love from a wonderful woman who unfortunately is married, but still truly loves me.

"Poagum Paadhai Dhooramae
Vaazhum Kaalam Konjamae
Jeeva Sugam Pera Raaga Nadhiyinil Nee Neendhavaa"

Mapping..

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